Sunday, January 28, 2007
it has been one year since i entered this small and cosy family..
baah just feel like writing what i've been feeling and thinking about in this family..maybe not all..just some (:
what actually inspired me to join PA?
baah sad to say, the answer is actually sim xin ming =x haha okay lar, like 30%? then the remaining reason is because i did lights and sounds when i was in rv eldds. so i thought, i could learn much more about lights and sounds in njc pa, and i did.
throughout this one year, there has been a mixture of emotions and feelings, at least for me.
tears, laughters, exhaustion, pressure, stress, fun, satisfaction, uncertainties, disappointment, and much more. all these feelings may not mean any sense to you all..but i feel that i've grown alot eversince i joined pa. im not sure if im better in managing my emotions than before, because i dont know how to make comparisons between then and now. baah. okay, joining basketball does not affect my life in pa, and i promise it definitely will not. pa is not just my cca. and im serious about it. i've learnt so much about myself and other people through pa. i've made more friends, you all, all other cca people and even teachers as my friends. i've known so much about myself, my weaknesses, my inabilities and my vulnerabilities. it is through knowing myself that i can learn much more. pa has brought to me many many treasures in my life, but what i've brought to pa seems to be nothing except trouble and maybe some small little forms of commitment which ought to come from me. i will leave pa someday, when that day comes, we'll handover to a brand new executive committee, and i will hold high hopes that this executive committee will bring pa to greater heights. but pa will not leave me, i know this for sure. it is my family, im not sure how many of you have this kind of feeling. but i dont care about the cca points and the many cip hours that i will get in pa, though looking at such statistics give a sense of satisfaction. but, whats more important is i've gained more than these statistics. i have memories, experience and a sense of belonging that i will bring along with me when i hand over.
the road that all of us take, when we're in pa, will not be a smooth one. especially for the ips, they have to walk a further road than all of us, cos most of them will be in this cca for like 2-3 years? please do not give up. i know i do not have this right to urge you all not to give up. but please dont. obstacles make us stronger, and mistakes make us learn. we may meet up with hiccups such as disagreements with fellow family members, events with floppy equipment, or even times when we are so unsure of ourselves..but be sure that, someone or perhaps everyone from pa will be there for you (: help each other out, understand each other more. we're a cca, we're a team and most importantly, we're a family. family members dont give up on one another (: Being in pa has been a very nice experience for me, there is nothing much to do in the hall control, but it is the sense of belonging which made me want to stay on. there are so many events in which we have to cope, but we have one another to rely on (: there are so many conflicts that we have to manage, but most of the times we ended up being understanding towards one another. there are so many worries that we have in pa, and most of the times we share them (: i like the feeling of being in pa, cos i know i will have something to fall back on..there may be changes since last year, but im learning to cope with the changes, and this is part of my pa life too (:
i have so much more to say, so many apologizes to make, so many thanks to give but i feel this is not the time yet. but then, let me clear one point. my decision to join basketball has minimum relation with my life in pa. and to me, pa and basketball are two different matters. and im learning to juggle both with the same amount of time that i had last year. please dont ask why i join, just know that it has nothing much to do with pa. (:
from now till handover (or even till forever), i will do my best for pa, and i hope you do too.
(: this is about it.
pa oiii! (: 3:30 PM;
posted by njc public address (: (:
